Exactly a month ago I turned 30 for the first time 🙂
I have always thought that my real age – emotionally and mentally – has always been 30.
For the past 3 years I have been mentally preparing myself for when I turn 30. When I was 27 I often considered myself as a 30 year old woman. In addition to that, I have always thought that my real age – emotionally and mentally – has always been 30.
Birthdays for me are the most important celebration of the year. Unlike most Greeks who celebrate their name-day more than their birthday, I always had huge birthday parties since I was little and no name-day celebrations. My name is not a typical Greek name and in that way I was different among my other friends. But I loved parties! On my birthday parties I would want to help my mom to make everything from scratch. Invitation cards, the cake, the food, the decorations… I wanted to have activities like beauty pageants and song contests and make my friends dance to the music. I was always worried whether my friends would have fun and if the party would be a success. Until I was 10 I was only inviting girls and they would bring their brothers to hang out with my brother. They were instrumental as they were the judges to the contests but they were also seriously dangerous as they could ruin everything and mostly my presious barbies. When I got older I started inviting more boys who at that age would behave better and bring the best presents ever hand picked by their mothers!
I still dance around on my own and I am sure that if my bestie, Artemis, Myrsini and Tzina were around they would still be jumping around with me!
At college I would invite everyone I knew and their friends to my tiny apartment. The more the people and the smaller the apartment the better! The most epic party was at my friend’s Artemis apartment and was themed after the 90’s; we moved all living room furniture to her little balcony that looked like a super cool patio and inside the small living room it felt like the grooviest bar in town!
Moving to the US the parties continued but as we grow older they tend to be less crazy and music oriented. People like to mingle more and cares more about the food. I still dance around on my own and I am sure that if my bestie, Artemis, Myrsini and Tzina were around they would still be jumping around with me!
After 5 years i got to spend my birthday back home with my family. I wasn’t expecting much as most of my friends are not there any more. I knew it would be quiet and without a big party and I was prepared for that.
I woke up on April 28th to a beautiful breakfast at home decorated with pink roses from our garden and then my siblings and Adonis asked me if I would like to fly on my birthday. I jumped up screaming “Yeassss”!
The view was so peaceful and so inviting. The idea of flying over that view like a bird was the dope!
30 minutes later I am jumping of a mountain without second thoughts and overwhelmed by excitement.
It was the best ride of my life! Never had I ever thought that I would so easily ran off a cliff and let the ground off my feet without a drop of hesitation. Of course I had the best coach having my back. After we jumped off the adrenaline kind of disappeared and I instantly got in the zone. I didn’t want to talk and just wanted to be in the moment. Every moment felt so long and joyful. I was looking down and I wasn’t scared by the height. I was looking up to the parachute and was feeling grateful of the wind that was caring us through this amazing little journey. I felt one with the nature in a supernatural way.
I was proud of myself for not allowing me to think twice, for being so open to this experience and for being able to receive the reward of that. I could have hesitated and think of all the things that could go wrong. I turned and looked at Adonis who was standing a few feet away thinking: “what if I die and this is the last time I see him?”. And then I realized that I shouldn’t let my fears take over and stop me from what I so much wanted to experience. The view was so peaceful and so inviting. The idea of flying over that view like a bird was the dope! And so I ran like an ignorant 6 year old and I flew light as bird to the most purifying experience of my life.
Turning 30 feels better than ever! All the hard work I have done with myself the past few years is now put into action and that looks like true clarity on life perspective.
P.S. Most heartfelt “thanks” to Adonis, Demi, Nickolas and Yorgos for the unforgettable birthday present.